This is so out of my comfort zone. Yet, it feels so right. Isn’t funny how that can be? My nerves are on high alert, but I know for a fact that this is where I’m meant to be.
So, what’s the hold up?
Here’s my struggle: technology is such a great thing, but a thing that I feel resistance towards. Not just the technical, ridiculously long-worded stuff, but the blogging and social media. I see how it connects people, but I also see how it has placed a wedge between us. I see that we’re informed, but clueless on the troubles of our actual next door neighbor. The things that are to make our life easier can easily cause more distraction than help. We miss the cry of the people in our homes because we’re too focused on the pings of our phones. We’re made to interact; we’re made to connect; we’re made to love the ones placed in our lives.
All that to say this: our world loves technology. There are so many benefits to it and it can draw us closer to each other, when used correctly. Lord, help us use it correctly!
Here’s my other struggle: I’m an introvert and I care way too much about what you think of me. I want you to like me. I want to make friends. I want to step out and reach out. Yet, I want to be left alone and stay in my bubble. My comfort zone is just that, comfortable and clean (at least I believe the illusion of clean). And that’s where this blog comes in…
It’s time to get over myself.
Over the last few years I’ve been through, and am still going through in some ways, so many trials that have tested my faith that it would be selfish of me to keep it to myself. I want to learn to use the tools in front of me to reach the people near and far.
Taking steps like this reminds me of the story in Matthew 14:22-33 where Jesus and the disciples had just finished feeding the five thousand. Jesus sent his disciples away on their boat while he dismissed the fed and went off alone to pray. It was late at night and a storm was raging when Jesus approached the boat, walking on the water. When the disciples saw Him they were terrified, crying out in fear, thinking it was a ghost. But immediately Jesus told them, “Take heart; it is I. Do not be afraid.” (Matthew 14:27)
His words were soothing, comforting, and encouraging. Peter wanted to be where Jesus was; with Him there was peace, in the boat was fear. Jesus called him out on the water and Peter climbed out. As long as he stayed focused on Jesus he was above the water, but as soon as he looked around at his present circumstances he began to sink. He lost focus, shifted his eyes to his surroundings and started to go under. Jesus immediately reached out his hand and took hold of him and he spoke directly to Peter’s heart, “O you of little faith, why did you doubt?” (Matthew 14:31) Did you catch that? He immediately reached out and took hold of Peter! Even in his little faith, in his doubt, Jesus took hold of him! Amazing. Thank you, Jesus, for holding on to me even when I’m not holding on to you. Even if we are faithless, You remain faithful – for You cannot deny Yourself. (2 Timothy 2:13)
The end of this story is Jesus and Peter climbing in the boat, the storm ending, and everyone in the boat worshiping Jesus. For worship is the only response suitable for a time like this, an experience like this.
I want to be the one that steps out of the boat simply because that’s where Jesus is. He commands me to come to Him. With His command He gives me the power to defy the laws of nature, even in the raging storm. I just have to keep my eyes on Him. Focus. When I lose focus He is sure to reach out and lift me up and bring me into His perfect peace.
And now, as I step out of the boat I will keep my eyes on Jesus, trusting Him to catch me when I fall, and worship Him for all He is.
The Word to Ponder
“Take heart; it is I. Do not be afraid.” Matthew 14:27
“Even if we are faithless, You remain faithful – for You cannot deny Yourself.” 2 Timothy 2:13
Reflect and Respond
Do you believe Jesus is calling you out and willing to help you?
In what areas of your life is He calling you to step out of the boat?
What is a step you can take today to start moving towards Him?
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