This past week’s been a tough one. My anxiety has flared it’s ugly head and I’ve found myself trapped in a vicious cycle of negative mind-talk and overall feelings of inadequacy and burden.
There isn’t a specific reason this started, (I’m sure it’s a cluster of reasons) but I’m done trying to over-analyze this beast. It’s here, I hate it, but I know it’s not here to stay. This time, instead of dwelling on why it’s here, I’m going to work on how to get rid of it; all the while praying that if it be beneficial for me to know the why (to hopefully prevent future “visits”) that God would make it clear. I’m done wasting my energy on the wrong question.
So how am I getting rid of it this time? I’m taking that adage “Don’t look back, you’re not going there” and doing the opposite. (Leave it to me to do the opposite…) Granted, I’m not going back to where I was, but I’m allowing myself to go back, to remember, the times God has brought be through before – so many times before (Psalm 77:11).